Dead

...
不想活
不属于这地方
很想死
讨厌这地方

..

从来没有这么难过过这么长时间
快3个月了
请争气

。。。

痛
麻
热
泪

无心无力

以后的日子该怎么过

自己选的路自己走
快要走不下去了
可是也得要走

加油

累

原来你那么期待星期二 有爱好是多么的好。。

每天上班就为了缴费 意义在哪儿呢

What can I do

Stupid as me

Sad day

Cried in front of colleagues today

Job

Feeling quite okay today regarding job.
Hmmm keep it up!

Miss daughters, miss home

看着家公发来的照片，红了眼眶，想女儿们。。

Emo - after work

Was walking very slowly after leaving office.
Feeling stressful.
Don't feel like eating.
Feel wanna die.
Please hold on. Dying is not a solution.
Tomorrow will be a better day.

Last day of September

It's last day of September. I remember last Monday was Mid Autumn Festival and I'm alone in Singapore. I'm still feeling sad and pain since the day u went away. I'm such a useless person. I hope I can be independent and make u less worried.

The weather is hot here but my heart is cloudy and heavy. It's 1pm here now, guess you're tired and still sleeping soundly.

Looking forward to receive your message and calls every moment. Can't describe how does it feels, it's really bad.

Coping with the new job and your absence is tough for me. I managed to survive for a week now. Hope I can be slightly better day by day.

You are a very good partner. You are my everything. I can't afford to lose you. I'm feeling insecure with our distance.

Crying and crying every single day. 2 more weeks to go. I am looking forward to your arrival at Changi airport on the 14th of October

Miss you so much.

累

无时无刻都在想你
你在那边很开心吧
我很想你
可以怎么办
新的工作很压力
没有你在身边
我想放弃了

为什么明年又要去
为什么
我快崩溃了
好累
真的吃不下睡不着

为什么我那么逊

我好糟糕

真没用

2nd day

突然很难受 听着留着泪说分手 睡不着 明明很累了 今天在公司呆到7点 和同事吃饭 8点回到房间

突然很难受 怎么办 那么遥远的距离 你不在的第二天 我还在逞强

你突然来的短信 触动了我的泪腺

Crying day

1st few hours after hubby flying off...
When he say he's going off, I'm trying very hard to hold my tears. He requested for a hug before leaving the room, my tears rolling down when I'm in his arms. Then he's leaving the house. I locked the door. After few seconds, I walked out and saw the lift going down. I feel lost and walked back to the room. I decided to go and say goodbye to him, I quickly put on my bras, take the key and ran out, I try to look down from the rubbish bin but I couldn't see him. I took the lift down but I couldn't see him. I texted him, he said the taxi was already here when he taking the lift down. I feel disappointed and tears rolling down my face, I went back to the room and lied down on the bed crying. I missed the chance to see him leaving with the taxi. Feel regret for it.

This is a very tough time for me. He is so important for me. I hope everything goes smooth for him. I don't wish to burden him as I know his job there ain't easy and he has to cope with many things there. Wish I can be with him there. Love him always.

Decision making

Tired

晴天

怎么会那么一无是处 都几岁了 还什么都不会
真差劲

生无可恋的感觉好强烈

无朋友 无兴趣爱好 无专长 无技术 无成就 无钱 无身材 无样貌 无爱心 无耐心 什么也没有

烂透了

活得好累

希望我的家人能好好的活着。健康快乐。

Lost

Working take away 8 hours or so in a day. If can't be happy, then what's the point of working. Means most of the time of ur life, u are unhappy.

Fake people are all around. Sick of this society. Living means suffer. What's the point of living?

🌱🌲🌳🌴🌵🌿🌾☘🍀🌹

怎么

已经想买了一段时间。今天决定要买了。我会用我自己的钱买。你的一句，不要傻啦，骗人的啦，让我突然心情变得不畅快。为什么。我好不容易心情才好了一些，现在又变差了。为什么你说要买什么，我都没反对。我很少买东西，每次都只是买女儿的东西。这次想说买给妈咪和我自己。你却立马反对了。我无语了。

你买个游戏机什么的，又可以，我买的东西，你却立马反对。这是为什么。我在你眼里是乱花钱的人吗？

又是不开心的夜晚。哭😢

或许有一天，当我不再那么在乎你。。
不知道要说什么了，不写了。

加油。明日会更好。

工作日

对生活感到绝望
日子一天天过去

到底还能撑多久
真的不知道

那件事。。。

自从那件事之后 我变得好自卑。
加班加点下班后坐在巴士，望着窗外的天空，又想起了那件事，好想哭。
昨晚欺骗了你，说哭泣是因为想萱。对不起。现在的我变得会吃醋了但我实在不想让你添烦恼。我得自己得调整心态，平和的去面对和克服这问题。希望时间能够冲淡一切。加油吧。

Working OT after so long

权力的追求真能让人改变。变成另一个人了。早出晚归，好累。活在这身不由己，紧张的社会，心累。马劳的宿命，何时能逃脱? 加油吧，会好的。

Blue and grey 16 May

女人-口是心非。难受。难过。只有自己知道。苦中作乐。日子还是得过。看开一些吧。希望撑得住。加油