Last day of September

It's last day of September. I remember last Monday was Mid Autumn Festival and I'm alone in Singapore. I'm still feeling sad and pain since the day u went away. I'm such a useless person. I hope I can be independent and make u less worried.

The weather is hot here but my heart is cloudy and heavy. It's 1pm here now, guess you're tired and still sleeping soundly.

Looking forward to receive your message and calls every moment. Can't describe how does it feels, it's really bad.

Coping with the new job and your absence is tough for me. I managed to survive for a week now. Hope I can be slightly better day by day.

You are a very good partner. You are my everything. I can't afford to lose you. I'm feeling insecure with our distance.

Crying and crying every single day. 2 more weeks to go. I am looking forward to your arrival at Changi airport on the 14th of October

Miss you so much.

累

无时无刻都在想你
你在那边很开心吧
我很想你
可以怎么办
新的工作很压力
没有你在身边
我想放弃了

为什么明年又要去
为什么
我快崩溃了
好累
真的吃不下睡不着

为什么我那么逊

我好糟糕

真没用

2nd day

突然很难受 听着留着泪说分手 睡不着 明明很累了 今天在公司呆到7点 和同事吃饭 8点回到房间

突然很难受 怎么办 那么遥远的距离 你不在的第二天 我还在逞强

你突然来的短信 触动了我的泪腺

Crying day

1st few hours after hubby flying off...
When he say he's going off, I'm trying very hard to hold my tears. He requested for a hug before leaving the room, my tears rolling down when I'm in his arms. Then he's leaving the house. I locked the door. After few seconds, I walked out and saw the lift going down. I feel lost and walked back to the room. I decided to go and say goodbye to him, I quickly put on my bras, take the key and ran out, I try to look down from the rubbish bin but I couldn't see him. I took the lift down but I couldn't see him. I texted him, he said the taxi was already here when he taking the lift down. I feel disappointed and tears rolling down my face, I went back to the room and lied down on the bed crying. I missed the chance to see him leaving with the taxi. Feel regret for it.

This is a very tough time for me. He is so important for me. I hope everything goes smooth for him. I don't wish to burden him as I know his job there ain't easy and he has to cope with many things there. Wish I can be with him there. Love him always.